It's been forever.

I'm not going to start with my usual statement since I don't really care.
XD
anywayyy I've written like 3 songs within the past two days and a bunch of random lyrics.
all of them are on my tumblr
: )
I'm bored and sweaty it's disgusting I need to go shower like right now its' grossing me out.I need to go home.
besides that my anxiety has gotten worse and worse which scares me now simple things I used to do everyday I can't do like since what 7th grade I would take a nightly walk I tried THREE times last night and everytime It'd flare up I got so upset with myself like I shouldn't have that stupid feeling ughhhh
:/

xanga feautured q

If you could put together a dream team of 5 bands to perform for you and friends, who would they be?


I felt like answering it.Right now for myself at least it'd be of course Bright eyes,Backseat goodbye,Daphne loves Derby,the spill canvas and probably boys II men that would be amazing if they sung of course thier old songs.

survey.

Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?- Nope
.When you're walking, do you stop to drink?- If i'm school yeah
.Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?- I dont think so wait...yeah
Have you ever snuck out of your house?- nahhh
What do you smell like?- love spell.
What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?- my stuff animal puppy I sleep with every night
.Do you like someone right this second?- yes XD
Tattoos?- Soon.

Are you a morning person or a night person?- both
Do you care what others think about you?- Nope honestly
Do you like to spend time with people?-not usually
Are you a forgiving person?Depends on what you did
When was the last time you did the dishes?- 2 days ago
Are you talking to anyone while doing this?- noppe
Want a relationship?- Kind of and kind of not
.Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?- yeah
f you could have a superpower what would you want to do?- flight
Three feelings at the moment?- annoyed.bored.thoughtful
Done anything you regret so far in life?- yeah
Are you listening to anything?- mhm daphne loves derby
What are you afraid of?- blood coming out of the shower.aliens.crowds.
Last movie you watched?- benchwarmers
.Are you thinking of someone right now?- I was.

I'm wide awake tonight.

Intrusionnn beginnnn.

So I found out that I pulled a muscle in my rib yeah it hurts seriously so bad all last night I tried to sleep and I couldnt every single side would hurt and it's super duper hard to breathe ughh honestly and it takes six weeks to heal so i'm going to be in pain.

Plus sides I downloaded more music and put it on my Ipod : )
&&&& my extensions were sent out yesterdayyy : )
I seriously can't wait to get them.

I'm trying to look at the bright side of things my entrys have been way to pesimistic lately and theres been a lot of good things too.So yeah I dont know haha.

I change my favorite band like every week I'm really getting into Daphne loves Derby they're amazing I just like so much music that I cant pick and choose an exact favorite yet.
Kay i'm bored i'm done I guess.

end intrusion.
Im boring.

The sweat is for nothing.

Intrusion started.(this one might be of interest)

So the mile just happened to be today you know the thing where the egotistical gym teachers tell you to run around like a mouse for them on a track and you have no freewill to tell them to shove it up thier asses anyway got me thinking is it really a requirement? So I looked up information about it and well my school is a bunch of god damn liars I should of known I had hope that maybe someone was honest in this administration of course not so there is a thing such as the physical education profile BUT there isn't a "physical fitnes unti" required it's more like they monitor you the whole year AND your not suppose to need it to graduate it's SUPPOSE to be something to test your own abilities and as long as you at least do what the task is no matter how well or not then you cant fail it oh but of course that doesnt really happen I swear everything is so fucking biased they say sport kids dont get special treatment haha Oooookay try being me and see how it fucking feels okay I'm chubby I cant run well I cant do sports well I SWEAT and get fucking out of breathe easy is it my fault I was born a certain way? thats what they fucking make me feel like seriously it's bullshit I hate this school im going to fucking drop out I cant take it I dont like being lied to and manipulated and fucking controlled no fuck that shit seriously it's rude. I said it it's wrong and rude and not right and this school is mean basically obviously nobody cares about human rights all they want to do is manipulate you and say it's for your own good it's not.Fuck it suck on that. Block the site I dont care anymore you people are insane.

End intrusion.

Cross your fingers for us.

Start intrusion.(cursing warning)

So I'm going to rant about my sister who I'm seriously beggining to hate.She obvs. cares too much about my personal life always trying to get some sort of information like whatever dude She's 22 living at home hasn't made an attempt to even get a fucking job yet doesnt pay my mom rent has a nasty girlfriend shes always tryign to get to come over like whatever yeah okay once in a while but not everyday and then If I happen to fail a class which happens way to fucking much she's all blah blah how is it so hard I'm like kayyy becuase you got TUTORED two hours didnt have to have any fucking requirements graduated when you were 19 and im only 17 so shove it you've never even taken a regents you dont have to deal with gym like fuck you dude you're the biggest loser seriously don't say shit to me fucking hypocrite ughhhhhhh seriously makes me mad like she doesn't need to know anything about me some shit you just have to keep personal you know?


Besides that I havent really done anything important i'm kin of the most boring person alive seriously.I'm listening to backseatgoodbye technicolor eyes great song.Hard to be angry too haha.
whatevvvv.
yeah i'm fuckinnnng donnne.


End Intrusion.

I'm dissapointed.Upset and confused.

Intrusion begin Now:(Warining:I'm going to curse a lot in this entry get over it.)

So I was suppose to go to the anti-war protest today but now I can't so fuck it I'm pissed.All this industry bullshit I hate it.Whatever though who I was suppose to go with they want to go for fucking attention and because it sounds cool this is my life.I promise myself right now that I will attend at least one rally before this year is over and start a group against Human trafficking I need to , shit like this is my life it gives me a meaning a purpose so while other people feed off sitting on thier asses all day while little kids are being beaten and raped and soldiers are dying over nothing important at fucking all I'm going to fucking do something because this world is poisonous and we all just sit there watching it and do nothing at all FUCK THAT i'm going to stand up and do something If I don't then I know in my heart that I haven't lived or helped anythign and I will die a fucking unhappy life.Thats why I hate school so much your all godamn hypocrites I mean we can know all this stuff but it wont help out in the real world it wont help if you have a goddamn child and it gets taken away and forced into a human trafficking ring I mean what are you going to do shout math at them? God teach some life skills next time.

Im fucking done.Get over me swearing yell at me I dont give a shit.Your just like the messed up politicians having to peek at everything we do and try and control the way we think Fuck that.Isn't america free?Yeah thought so.So think about it again and have it burn your mind all day im sure it will.

End intrusion.